cliche.

I know that it all sounds like a huge cliche. I just feel like I need you to breathe. You are my everything and I got tossed aside. And for what? You say you need me but you just don't. You thought that you needed me. I guess I gave you the chance to prove yourself wrong. It only confirmed what I feared the most.I can't just forget about you and I can't live the way I was living. My ceiling has millions of pieces of stucko on it and I think that I have counted them all. I can't even use my debit card because I know I will have to use the code. Everything we promised each other just got thrown away. All the times when we confided in each other, the times we spent making plans for our future- none of that matters anymore. You let me go...I told you how unimportant you made me feel and said I couldn't take it anymore, and you just let me go. Instead of fighting for me...you made me feel that much more unimportant and let me walk away. I want to call you. Want to see you, talk to you, sit with you...I reached for the phone so many times today. But then I realized that you had a life without me..a life that may be better without me. A life that is filled with future plans. A plan that I was no longer a part of. A life that does not revolve around paying attention to me. So I put the phone down because even though it is so incredibly hard to be without you, it is that much harder to be an unimportant part of your life. Because I remember the days when you completely adored me. I remember the days when you would drop everything to spend five minutes with me. Any chance you got, you took it. If I needed anything, I didn't have to worry about you getting irritated or upset because you had to cancel plans, you were there for me no matter what. You were the most important person in my life. I have made mistakes that have driven you away and I wish more than anything that I could take that back. I was so caught up in fitting in and having fun, and was part of the reason why we are where we are today. Then again, so were you. I will never forget you. I care about you more than any person in the whole entire world, and my life is not the same after one day without you. I'm sure it will only get harder from here on out. It kills me to let go, but if you don't even notice or care that i'm gone, what's the point? You could have come after me. I came by your house to say goodbye today. You weren't there. I guess it's a sign that you will be okay this time. I hope that you can be happy.